wish that everyone that saves my life knew who they were.
if some of my friends knew how much it meant to me to just hang out with them for a few hours and enjoy myself, they would thik i was a creepy creepr.

everything good goes bad.
BUT
i have jenna maher back so its all okay right now.
i wouldnt have been able to go through anything without you babe<33333333333333

fuck stupid lawrence and peopel trying to have sex with me and noone being a nice boy or a nice girl anymore.
i think this oculd work because the whoel time we were together we were secretly thinking the same thing.
i love it how you tell me exactly everythign you think and i love it how we dont have to DO anything stupid in order for you to want to be around me.
me just being there is okay with you, and thats what i love the most.
i hope this is everything i want it to be, i hope you want this as bad as me.



in other words, i have plans nonstop for the next few days and im so pumped!
llamas bbq tomorrow wher ei get o see manda and bre who i miss so much and then nepa fair with jen bby and a big sleepover after hopefully with lots of nicotine and popcorn and movies movies movies.
my summers startig nso late, but its worth it i swear.

so far is so great and i think i kisse someone and i actually like them this time a n i hope that maybe they like me back even though they just met me and.
THEYRE ALL I THINK ABOUT and that sounds stupid but its true.

i have to go back to school tomorrow and i cant take it.
kevin mcguire is out inthree weeks exactly, thank jesus.
i havent been home and im likin that for now.
i have a big goofy crush and its all confusing but i like that too.
big huge show tomorrow night, so excited!
<3

Nobody lives up to expectations anymore, eveyone changed for the worse, and i have absolutley no respect for any of my old friends. Im extremely loyal and respectful and responsible, all of which are good qualities, and none of them can understand that, let alone return the favor.
im finding new friends, so dont worry about it.
i lost my souls counterpart.




oh the other hand i keep getting goofy crushes except im bad at telling people i have them on them or whatever. right now im good with the swinger scene and although i miss the kevin brown days filled with flattery and public displays of affection, now i see what everyone else did all along and know im better off.

im going to try to start this thing up again.

i dont know how i feel.

KEVIN BROWN<3

the last few weeks have been the best since summer.
the only thing that could make them better would be kevin mcg busting out.
im falling for kevin brown, and its wierd wierd wierd but i really like this and i get all nervous because im not in control and everything makes my head all dizzy.

i wish my head wasnt like this.
i cant enjoy anything anymore.